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On 3rd Ave: a man trying to break into a car
with his bare hands.
I stopped to see if he could do it, but he couldn’t do it.
Tonight my recipe for disaster
is the same as dinner—rice and chicken stock.
I don’t know what to call hunger anymore, his
or mine. In The Craft
Nancy became Sarah so the rapist would want her.
For some people,
to say yes once is to say yes to all eternity,
shackled like a fist to a headboard.
If I were a witch—if the devil permitted me this—
I would learn the words to every spell,
deliver a drug addict to a warm backseat, harm those
who would harm my friends.
I was Nancy’s age. Back then
I held the devil in the crook of my arm
like a sated babe,
like he was my slave. Like I could do anything, undo
anything. And later he held me, splintered
like a wishbone.
Every young witch wants to be Sarah,
even when Sarah is someone else.

 
 

Published July 9th, 2020


Jiordan Castle is the author of the 2020 chapbook All His Breakable Things. A Pushcart-nominated essayist and poet, her work has appeared in Cagibi, Hobart, New Ohio Review, Third Point Press, Verdad, Vinyl, and elsewhere online and in print anthologies. She is a resident poet and essayist for the LA-based quarterly food and culture magazine Compound Butter. In 2018, she won the inaugural Pigeon Pages essay contest and is now writer and curator of the journal’s series The Long Pause… Jiordan has an MFA in Poetry from Hunter College and currently lives in New York City with her fiancé and their dog.